Sunday, March 6, 2011

Let it go already

I may not have been perfect over the years and I am certainly not perfect now, but I deserve to not be bashed and treated like shit from the very people that are supposed to love me. Whatever, I have tolerated being called lazy, a bad mother, bitchy and God knows what else, and it would be a God damn shame if any of these people ever stopped for one second and jumped down off of their high horses long enough to see the life long pain I have endured. It took 35 years before I got a diagnosis and I can honestly say since I have been treated for my ailments I have become a better, happier person, and have apologized for any past treatment of others,  but of course those that have condemned me for my short comings all of these years can't see past what they have made of me.

I came into this world with a mother, father, and three sister's, and up to this point I only have two sisters left...not by my choice but by the choice of the other three that have chose to be self righteous and unforgiving. Yet by the same token, all can be forgiven by these same self righteous fools if I was the alcoholic, abusive father or brother or the daughter that never questioned what was said.

Finding a wonderful man and all the happiness that I have missed my whole life has been like a cancer to those that have bashed me and thought very little of me. It has eaten away at them to the point that they still belittle me, even though they no longer communicate with me. To them I am not worthy of love and happiness. Maybe they are jealous of my relationship since one of them keeps their husband around to supposedly pacify her grandson/son and the other just doesn't want to be alone, so having ANY one around is better than NO one and sticking their nose where it sure as hell doesn't belong because their life isn't exciting enough.

There are no perfect mothers out there and to the one who thinks she is, has no right to horn in and take away any child and brain wash them. Being a good mom doesn't mean giving a child every material object they desire or letting them have their way always. It's teaching them how to be self sufficient, what is right and wrong and letting them know they are loved.

1 comment:

  1. I believe that you are a beautiful person, a wonderful mother and a terrific wife. Surround yourself with those who love you and know that you truly deserve all the wonderful things that they may have to offer!